This one is for all the online lotharios, predators, and others who send DMs to me on social media.
First of all, NO, I do not want to see your dick pic. Honey, I am 60 years old, with a grown son. Which means that at some point, yes, I have already seen a dick, or I wouldn’t have my kid. Plus, having survived the sexual revolution of the 70’s, been a good soldier in it, AND was around during the heyday of chat, I’ve already seen more dicks, and pics of dicks than you can shake your dick at. Yours, is not going to send me into an orgasmic frenzy. Trust me on this. It takes a hell of a lot more than just a dick, much less a pic of a dick, to do that to me.
Now, listen carefully to this warning. You do NOT want to fully explore my little mind. Along with some black holes others have gone down while screaming for help, the shit that can be going through my mind at any given moment is enough to send hardened psychopaths running for cover.
For the love of everything! Do NOT try to shock me with sexual innuendos or even outright vulgarity because when the dust finally settles, you are going to be the one with your jaw on the floor. I am a well drillers daughter born and bred in the oil field. I also went to parties in the 70’s I had to be careful of not tripping on people fornicating all over the place while making my way to the bathroom. Only to discover fornicating people in bathroom when I got there. Then, the wonderfully wanton world of chat opened up to me. Man, did I have some fun there! And to top it all off, I also dabble in writing hardcore erotica.
Which leads me to say that honestly, if you are an upstanding, good Christian man, in or out of the military, who is shy at first, but fun once you get to know him, what in the cornbread hell are you doing even THINKING about sending the likes of me a private message expressing a desire to get to know me better. You should be doing what your Christian mother told you to, and avoiding women like me. Now Shoo!
I'm happily watching Return to Lonesome Dove when Mr. Grinch informs me that the guy playing that psycho character Cherokee Jack is now the official spokesperson for Allstate. I was aghast at the thought of that. And there was Morris the maniacal muse jumping up and down on my shoulder laughing and screaming, "Oh boy Allstate put their customers in really good hands!" I Googled it, and discovered that Mr. Grinch was right, and yeah the same actor who once played Cherokee Jack is whose hands Allstate customers are in. I'm still rather aghast at the irony of that, and the muse is still laughing like crazy.
We also live in a world where Big Brother, his sister, mother, father, and maybe even cousin Bubba are watching you. Especially if you like to Facebook and Tweet. Or walk down a street with a Google Cam. Or into any store or area where surveillance cameras are keeping a watchful eye perpetually open. Every time you surf the net cookies and other programs are tracking your every move. Is it any wonder as a nation, perhaps even as a world, we have become a trifle paranoid?
I know when I really think about it, it scares the hell out of me. Fortunately I'm blonde enough to not do that too often. If I did really think about it too often, I am afraid I would be out there building underground bunkers and joining the survivalists. I prefer to not worry about it, even thumb my nose at it all, go shopping on Amazon.com on a mac, with my cookie filters set as high as I can and still shop, then let them figure out what they think I'm going to want to buy next with whatever information they could glean from that shopping spree. They have NO idea what a precocious shopper I am.
Is the government watching me? Well, I was known as a radical troublemaker in the 70's. Yeah I know, hard to believe I was ever a radical troublemaker. Over the years I have continued my quiet peaceful ways by proving sometimes, the truth really does hurt, by stepping on several political toes, while simply writing the truth. Some of those toes were Presidential ones. And I have a son in the Air Force. So, what do you think? Would they really waste their time, and our tax dollars on somebody as harmless as me? It's not like I'm the kind to spark a revolution.
Personally, I think they have a lot better things to waste their time, and our tax dollars on. Things like paying researchers to play video games, study the effects of cocaine on Japanese quail, teach Chinese prostitutes how to drink responsibility, or pay a professor to study how Americans find love on the internet. No, I'm not making this stuff up. I Googled stupid things the government spends money on, and found this stuff. It was on the internet after all, so it must be true.
To see the clubhouse filled with a family celebrating a mother's 90th birthday was enough to touch even my stony heart. The fact it was a fellow worker and friend who was celebrating his mother's momentous birthday was just icing on the cake for me. One thing I wanted to do when I took this job was be a part of the team who helps make the Top of the Hill RV Resort the kind of place beautiful lifetime memories are made. I could tell by the happy faces of those celebrating Friday night, such memories were being made during that birthday party.
I'm also glad the Friday night Mexican Train Dominoes game is now a regularly scheduled event on our Activities Calendar, and was then able to move it over to the Vistas Banquet Hall. I know the folks who play that game really enjoy it. It is nice to know they can now continue playing every Friday night, no matter what else may be going on in the Clubhouse.
And last, but certainly not least, the weather allowed us to have a campfire, complete with hot dogs and marshmallows. The Cowboy Campfire is one of my favorite activities. Due to weather conditions, I cannot always light the campfire, so those Friday nights when I am able to do so make it even more special to me. I saw a package of huge campfire marshmallows when I was in Walmart the other day, and thought to myself, "Heck those are specially for campfires, so I have to grab a package!" I am glad I did because those big boys were a hit at the campfire. I had one myself I am proud to say I carefully toasted to perfection. The outside was a beautiful light crispy tan, and the inside was a gooey delight.
Saturday night was a Soup's On! Potluck dinner. After that busy Friday night it was nice to just relax and enjoy the company of great folks, and some really delicious soup. I took a pot of my Hearty Ground Beef Soup made with browned and crumbled ground beef, V8 Vegetable Juice, and mixed canned vegetables. I made a big pot of it, and can safely say it was a hit since there was just enough left for Larry and I to have today for dinner.
Successfully coordinating all these activities was really good for me. There is nothing like the feeling of a well done job to make a person feel stronger, and better about their own self. When you love your job as much as I do mine, that is an even better feeling. I am so very glad that I did accept that job offer, and have become a part of the team who is helping make this beautiful place where I live and work, all that it can be.
I admit I'm not doing as much writing as I once did, but that's not really a bad thing because what's happening right now is that I am really living the story. Some may instinctively understand what I mean by that. If you don't understand, it stems from the fact that there are moments when I am doing my job, and living my life, that I feel as if I am in the middle of some really great story. Yeah, okay I admit when the fire swept through here in 2011 it was a hardcore "Disaster Movie!" moment. Thankfully, nobody was hurt, and the buildings we lost have been replaced.
The story is continuing, with what I can tell are going to be great chapters in the future. I will be making notes, keeping a journal, and doing what writing I can while those great chapters unfold. Most of all, I will be totally experiencing the story as it continues to unfold. All stories, be they fiction, non fiction, or a little of both, are in some way shape or form, a product of what the writer has experienced. So whether it is a quiet moment while hiking that inspires such stories as Nature's Loophole and A Solitary Beauty, or a moment that inspires a blog entry like this one, I am going to continue drawing my inspiration from this very real story of my life here at the Top of the Hill RV Resort.
I am of course a Texas Lady who firmly believes in the right to bear arms. However, for a very long time I have thought we do need to ban assault rifles and high output clips. Yes, we are nation of hunters. But, assault rifles and high output clips are NOT hunting rifles. Not unless hunting and killing large numbers of people is your choice in "game". Some survivalists will tell you they need those guns in case our government goes completely berserk and another revolution is necessary. I hate to disillusion the survivalists, but if that ever happens, even with all the guns they already have at their disposal, we are screwed. The reason we are screwed is because an out of control rabid government isn't going to play fair, and chances are the first thing that would happen is those with the most guns and ammunition would be taken out by bigger better guns, and bombs. Or and by the way, that out of control government isn't going to warn anyone first before they take out those that pose the most threat to them. That is the reality of happens when a government becomes an out of control dictatorship.
Having said that, let me also say that I firmly believe we have a much larger problem than too many big guns out there. Gun control is at best treating the symptom, and not the disease. More than anything else, we need to address the mental health problems that are causing these massacres. Until we do that, no amount of gun control is going to truly take our children out of danger. The numerous knife slashings in Chinese schools prove that. To truly make our schools, malls, and other public places safe, we must find a cure, or at least an effective treatment for those who are suffering from this terrible disease that makes them want to kill innocent people, and often take their own life after doing that. We must have a health care system that offers the parents of children like this the help they need. Currently the system is miserably failing parents with mentally disturbed, sometimes very violent children. From all I've read, basically, until the child commits a crime, nothing can be done. And then the "solution" involves incarceration. Putting mentally disturbed children and adults in jail is NOT the solution to the problem!
Yes, the mentally handicapped do have rights. However, we also have the right to live our lives without having to worry about seeing our children massacred, as well as the right to go a mall, movie or other public place without being massacred by the mentally unstable. Now somewhere in this equation there has to be a sensible and fair solution to this problem. I suggest the politicians spend less time worrying about how to raise money for the next election, and more time working together towards a solution to this problem.
Next I'm going to tackle the issue of God being taken out of the schools. First of all, no God or Goddess has been removed from ANY public school in America. Any child, of any religion is free to pray to whatever God or Goddess he or she wishes to. Children are not prohibited from saying grace over their meal if they wish to. Nor are they prohibited from discussing their religion amongst themselves on their own time. What is prohibited is the concept of any one religion being taught as the only true religion. Yes, making every child, no matter what his or her religion bow their head to the Christian God, and be led in a prayer to that God, is most definitely prohibited. As it should be. Our schools contain students and staff of many religions, as well as atheists. No non Christian child or staff person should have to bow his or her head in prayer to a God they do not worship.
Secondly, if you are a Christian, since your own bible teaches you that your God is Omnipotent and Everywhere, how can he be taken out of School, or anywhere else? I don't have a bible that tells me so, but I happen to believe the Gods and Goddesses I believe in are just as Omnipotent and Everywhere as the Christian God. Which means any child or adult in or out of school, or anywhere on this earth can connect to them through a word or prayer, if they so choose.
No, I am not going to say you can't take something that doesn't exist anyway, out of the schools. For me to say the Christian God does not exist is as hateful and hurtful as saying the Gods and Goddesses I believe in do not exist. I believe that for those who believe in him, the Christian God does exist. That has always been my stand concerning the Christian God, or any other God or Goddess. We would all get along a lot better if we would learn to say, "I do not or worship that God.", instead of saying, "God does not exist." The atheists could be more tactful as well and simply say, "I personally do not believe your God exists.", instead of, "God does not exist." In other words, let's all show some manners and at least peacefully and politely acknowledge that for others, the Christian God, as well as many many other Gods and Goddesses exist for those that believe in them, and that some do not believe in any God or Goddess.
If this all sounds confusing to you, then you have never reached a point in life where you felt as if somewhere along the way, you had lost a very important part of yourself.
Those who aren't confused, have reached that point at sometime in their life. Hopefully, they went on to find that part of themselves they thought they had lost.
If you haven't yet found that part of yourself you think you lost along the way, then what you need to do is make as drastic a change in your life as you can. A change that takes you as far away from where you were when you lost that part of yourself, and back to where you really want to be. I promise you, if you can get back to where you really want to be in life, and rediscover that person you were before that part of you went missing, you will also find that missing part of you.
If you need to, take baby steps at first when it comes to a change in your life. Think of one thing in your life right now you can change if you really set your mind to it, then DO IT. Once you have made that change, taken that first baby step, you will find that there are other things in your life you can now change.
It's kind of like a domino effect in a way. You make one change in your life, and no matter how small that change may seem to others, it is going to open doors for you that will allow other changes. Keep making those changes, going through every door that opens up to you. Most importantly, have a wonderful time on this journey you have started that will help you find that piece of yourself you thought you lost along the way.
One of my favorite photos that Ron took is this one of me standing there leaning on my walking stick surveying the magnificent scenery around me. Ron was hiding in a gully below me, and I had no idea the camera was on me. As you can see from the look on my face in that photo, I am totally enthralled with that scenery. And I will have to admit, more than a little amazed at myself for already having come that far up the rock. The feelings of accomplishment and inner peace I had at that moment in time cannot be described, only experienced.
The rock solid truth here is I really don't usually deal well with heights. Add to that the fact I was a couple of days short of my 54th birthday, and have no depth perception due to having sight in only one eye, and perhaps you can see why hiking up Enchanted Rock was not as easy a task for me to undertake as it would be for some. However, as the expression on my face shows in that photo, I overcame all that as I stood there leaning on the stick that made that climb a lot easier for me.
Sometimes, life takes its toll on all of us in some form or another. We reach a place in time where we wonder if we have the strength and courage to do what we need, or want to do? You can pray to whatever God or Goddess you believe in for strength and courage, and receive to a certain degree what you are praying for via faith in that God or Goddess. But, sometimes, a person needs more than that. Sometimes, a person needs to know on a very personal level that he or she has the strength and courage to physically and mentally do something. The hike to the summit of Enchanted Rock renewed not only my faith in the things I believe in, but also in myself.
The stunning views from Enchanted Rock are inspiring from any level you are on. The feelings of accomplishment and exhilaration when you reach the summit make the views from it even more breathtaking. No matter what your reasons for climbing Enchanted Rock, reaching that summit does open a new world to anyone viewing it. I stood there, 425 feet above the earth below me, feeling both like a 400ft Amazon woman, and a tiny little ant at the same time. But what an absolutely astounding feeling that was! Because I had enough sense to stay well back from the edge, at no time was I in fear of falling. Climbing that wonderfully Enchanted Rock taught me I'm not really that afraid of heights, so much as being close to the edge of a ledge.
I learned so many things about myself on that climb to the summit of Enchanted Rock. Things I will never forget. Things I will remember in my mind, as well as heart and soul, every time I look at that photo of me standing there completely entranced by Enchanted Rock. I intend to make very sure I stay completely enthralled by what I experienced hiking Enchanted Rock. One way I intend to do that is by undertaking even more hikes. With backpack on, Freddy along for the ride, and walking stick in hand, I intend to allow life to enchant me every damn chance it gets!
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Unfortunately, the most unique formation those centuries of water droplets formed can only be seen in pictures now because on November 21, 2006, the beautiful Sonora Caverns butterfly was vandalized. What took thousands of years to form, was destroyed in seconds by the hand of one person. Like many of those reading these words, when I first found out what had happened to the butterfly formation all I could think was, "How could anyone destroy such a priceless and unique natural treasure?" But, then I thought about the callousness and viciousness that surrounds us in this world, and at least on an intellectual level arrived at some small understanding of how that could happen. To the person who destroyed that unique treasure, the portion of the wing broken off was nothing more than a trophy that he could use to brag to friends about. Because that portion of the wing will not last long outside the cavern walls, by now that trophy is probably nothing but dust.
On a more cheerful note, those willing and able to make the trip can still enjoy all the other fantastic formations in the Caverns of Sonora. Just as anyone who is willing and able can enjoy many of the beautiful wonders nature has to offer by visiting nearby state and local parks, as well as privately owned places that allow visitors. Caverns, canyons, mountains, streams, lakes, and hot springs offer us an opportunity to reconnect with nature on a very personal level. A hike along a nature trail can even be a very spiritual experience for someone who opens his or her mind, body and soul along that trail.
With the economy still in the shape it is, nearby state and national parks can offer families an inexpensive day out that will provide many wonderful lasting memories. So when the weather does warm up, I encourage those reading these words to do a little research, find a nearby state or national park, and take at least a day trip through it. Be sure and take your camera so you can capture the memories you make while visiting it!
Just be sure and leave any place you visit exactly how you found it so that others can also enjoy it. Please be especially careful around those delicate wonders of nature that can so easily be destroyed by the touch of a human hand. Remember, one careless or selfish act can rob all those who come after you, including future generations of your own, from experiencing what you are enjoying. Look, photograph when allowed, but don’t touch has become my motto when enjoying the many beautiful wonders of nature that can be found in state, national and private parks. I follow this motto because I want others, including my grandson, and his children and grandchildren to one day be able to enjoy all the natural wonders I am fortunate enough to experience. Give, in the form of stories and photographs, but don’t take!
As I recall those wonderful moments I am so glad I finally got over the aversion to traveling that my nomadic youth had given me for so long. Gone now are the days when my roots ran so deep anything more than an weekend jaunt was looked upon with horror rather than wonder. Now I am chomping at the bit to once more hitch up the travel trailer and hit the road. Buying that travel trailer is one of the best things we ever did. I think the fact that it provides me with a home away from home that is familiar territory so speak, is one reason my feelings towards traveling has changed so much. That, and the fact I've discovered luxury RV parks with extra goodies like swimming pools and hot tubs have helped change my attitude towards traveling. Boredom also played a big part in that change of attitude.
My soul longs to experience the beauty of nature in many different places now. I want to stand on many mountain tops and survey the valleys below. I want to hike deep within lots of canyons and experience their wonders. One of my New Year resolutions for 2010 is to explore as much of Texas as I can. This big state I was born in offers such a diversity of sights to see, and natural wonders to experience. I intend to see and experience as many of them as I possibly can this spring, summer and fall. Some places I visited in past are going to be revisited. Places like Fort Davis, Big Bend, Terlinqua, and Seminole Canyon. New places like Palo Duro Canyon will also be explored.
As I sit here daydreaming of seeing all those places, and more, I find myself very grateful that I will be able to see only the beauty of those places, and experience them in a way that leaves me filled with positive wonder. And I find myself thanking The Powers That Be for allowing me to still do that despite all the many sorry sights I've seen, and bad experiences I've had. Yes, personal strength plays a big role in being able to do that. Unlike some, I have made a conscious decision to see the beauty, and experience the wonder. But, I am very very grateful that whatever created me, instilled enough personal strength within me to be able to do that. What a drag it must be to only see the bad, and never experience the good.